Two Almost Three!

As you can see I'm already a mommy to a handsome not so little 8 year old boy. But life has definitely changed for me and my family. My husband and I were blessed with a beautiful baby girl. As a matter of fact she is our rainbow.

On March 3rd 2016 my husband and I suffered an extremely tragic loss. Our precious little boy Mason became an Angel at 37 weeks into my pregnancy.  I still feel that I am to blame for losing our precious boy. I haven't talked about the passing of our son for awhile now, and I definitely haven't spoken about it on form of social media. I'm still at a loss as to what to say about it all and my son doesn't like to talk about it either. I haven't forgotten about him, he will always be in our hearts. The hospital took pictures of my son and placed them in a memory box, but to this day I haven't had the courage to open the box and take a look.  My husband and I always say that our cat Yoda (whom we got as a kitten) is a reincarnate of Mason with just the way he acts especially around me.

Moving Forward...

Life with two kids has been very interesting. It's been 8 years since I've had to endure the newborn stages of sleepless nights and constant diaper changes. I've always wondered what it would be like if Mason were here with us. But my daughter Hailey has been our sunshine and she definitely the rainbow that comes after every storm. Ryan has been such an excellent big brother to his sister and it melts my heart to see how crazy he is about her. These two are the light of my life, even though I don't have my son full-time I always cherish every moment I get with him when he's with me. I've already been asked if I am planning on having another little one, but I think I will be waiting until Hailey is at least a year old before my husband and I even try for another one.