Two Almost Three!

As you can see I'm already a mommy to a handsome not so little 8 year old boy. But life has definitely changed for me and my family. My husband and I were blessed with a beautiful baby girl. As a matter of fact she is our rainbow.

On March 3rd 2016 my husband and I suffered an extremely tragic loss. Our precious little boy Mason became an Angel at 37 weeks into my pregnancy.  I still feel that I am to blame for losing our precious boy. I haven't talked about the passing of our son for awhile now, and I definitely haven't spoken about it on form of social media. I'm still at a loss as to what to say about it all and my son doesn't like to talk about it either. I haven't forgotten about him, he will always be in our hearts. The hospital took pictures of my son and placed them in a memory box, but to this day I haven't had the courage to open the box and take a look.  My husband and I always say that our cat Yoda (whom we got as a kitten) is a reincarnate of Mason with just the way he acts especially around me.

Moving Forward...

Life with two kids has been very interesting. It's been 8 years since I've had to endure the newborn stages of sleepless nights and constant diaper changes. I've always wondered what it would be like if Mason were here with us. But my daughter Hailey has been our sunshine and she definitely the rainbow that comes after every storm. Ryan has been such an excellent big brother to his sister and it melts my heart to see how crazy he is about her. These two are the light of my life, even though I don't have my son full-time I always cherish every moment I get with him when he's with me. I've already been asked if I am planning on having another little one, but I think I will be waiting until Hailey is at least a year old before my husband and I even try for another one.

Looking Back...My First...

I'm sure you're wondering by the title above what I'm going to be writing about, but I'm going to turn the clock back to let's say 8 years ago when I found out I was pregnant with my first child.
My current boyfriend at the time and I were NOT expecting to have any kids right away. (I mean no one really does anyway...At least, I think so!) Anyhow, we were both scared and excited because this meant a whole new chapter in our lives. As for me primarily I was beyond scared. I had no family here, the only family I had were my boyfriends and they were beyond welcoming and accepting.
But turning the clock forward to May 16th, 2009 at 5:45 P.M. We welcomed a handsome 8lbs 12oz little chunk. He was my pride and joy and I was completely in love with this little guy.

Once we brought him home I knew that life would no longer be the same for our little family. I was not prepared for the numerous sleepless nights I had ahead of me, but looking at his beautiful face and little tiny smiles I knew every last bit of it was worth it.

Fast Forward... 

He's now 8 years old and I can't believe how much he's grown. He's such an intelligent little guy who has so much potential in life. His love or should I say obsession for technology astounds me. With how fast technology is constantly changing, I'm sure later on down the road he'll be the one schooling me on how to do certain things, but we'll see...
Unfortunately, things don't always go the way you want them to and life ends up handing you a curve ball. My boyfriend at the time and I had our differences and had to go our separate ways. I ended up going back to my hometown in Seattle, but I'll get to that in another post!

HELLO!

Hello... just as the title says, WELCOME! Thank you for taking the time to visit. This blog will primarily consist of daily ramblings of my life as a wife and a mother. Please check back for daily entries. I look forward to sharing a glimpse of my life with the world.